So I want to make a list of the places I want to travel to within the next 8 years

  • 2013- California, Nevada
  • 2014- North Carolina, New York
  • 2015- Canada (wherever my most of my friends are at the time, haha)
  • 2016- Ireland (Dublin), United Kingdom (London)
  • 2017- Germany, France, Italy
  • 2018- Africa (Zimbabwe, Madagascar)
  • 2019- Australia (Sydney)
  • 2020- Peru (Machu Pichu)

As for how I will afford to travel every year, that’s the variable. But I’m determined. I am young and I am single and I want to explore and learn and meet people and soak it all up!


Photoshoot today was so fun!!

I rode a bicycle for the first time in years!! It was for some of the shots, though I’m not sure if they will even be used, it was still really fun!

My hair was in interesting curls that are now a bit more tamed.

I am debating going out… but I’m a bit tired.

I feel like life is moving again.


Woke up crying

I had a dream I was driving on the street with just a steering wheel, nothing else, I was running in the street with a steering wheel in my hand in the darkness of night. I went to go pick up my dad (deceased) in home depot (a place we would go to together often) and when him and I were leaving, I saw our beloved dog; Kelly, who’d lost her way, laying there in front, with an untreated broken leg and unable to move. I wanted to take her with me, but somehow the logic of the fact that I was running with a steering wheel in hand, crept in, and my dad suggested I leave her there and we just go pick up my siblings.

So him and I jog side by side in the in the rode, until we reach a certain intersection and I panic, I said my siblings could wait and that Kelly was hurt, and I couldn’t bare it! We had to go back! I did not want to lose her again! So we turned around and when we got back to the main road, someone yelled at me that my lights were off, though admittedly, I had noticed it before, but when someone yelled at me about it, a clicky appeared. I pulled it and these headlights appeared and luminated before me.

This is a recent thing for me, to be dreaming and be unaware that I am dreaming, I don’t like it. 99% of the time I dream, I am fully aware of it. Lately, more and more often, I am not aware and it is very shocking to my emotions. Because typically if I don’t like a dream, I can just tell myself to wake up, but with these I just have to wait it out, because, well, I don’t even know that I am having them.

This time, something disturbed me, a light or a sound, I can’t remember, but the sky in real life was similar to the sky in my dreams and I thought maybe my dog was really in home depot with a broken leg. I brought it up to my mother and she hugged me and reminded me that it’s been maybe 9 years since she got lost. It couldn’t possibly be her. I started sobbing, the dream had fooled me, my heart is still racing with the need to rescue her.

It’s funny, not even crying for my dad, who died just a year ago. I understood death, he’s gone, but the possibility that my baby was alive and she was in pain, just killed me.


I am doing this in October! http://thecolorrun.com/miami/


My room was targeted

They came in through my window, wrecked my room and stole most of my valuables. The other rooms in the house are clean, however, they stole my brother’s laptop and camera.

Remember when I had strangers harassing me, knocking on my window late at night?

Then they used the same window to get in the house.

This is insane.


The eve before I return to New York

My house has been robbed.

They stole my two laptops, my cameras, my saved cash.


Tell me how BRILLIANT the cover is for this month’s Psychology Today!

It’s a person face painted as the “toxic” symbol and the lead article is entitled “DIFFICULT PEOPLE: How to handle whiners, manipulators, bullies, and more”

I can’t wait!


Can’t get rid of my feelings. G’damn.

You know what? We all gotta learn to accept that we will bump into people in life and sometimes they happen to be our good friends, and those people just happen to be precious, wonderful, human beings, and we will admire them HARD, but romance is just out of the question.

Just DEAL with it, accept the situation, because “unrequited” doesn’t make them less adorable or precious. They are to be admired from a distance and that is the way it is, that is the design. Be happy that you are in their presence at all, ENJOY their company, be happy you are in the presence of someone special and expect nothing more. Be happy, expect nothing.


I am feeling a lot better today!

The pain is absolutely bearable and open my mouth a bit wider! :)

Anon is still off and I’m not sure when/if I ever turn it back on, because whether it was trolls or just cruel people I do not need that added stress.

I want you to know that if you ever feel the need to be anonymous for advice or help, know that you only need to ask and I will keep it confidential between the two of us, you don’t have to worry.

Today, I might try to figure out how to decorate some of my empty walls :)


Well this was certainly a busy night on the blog

Now I HAVE to rest, don’t be alarmed when a post comes up, I have a queue, it happens. Good night :)

Oh and anon is coming off, you want to start trouble when I’m ill? At least do it to my face [SO rude]. ANON OFF


I can’t let myself be so saddened by this, it could be so much worse.

Thank you for all your help and support guys!

I have to bear through the pain and deal with the inability to work or eat and know that it will get better soon, I’m sorry if I brought any of you down, that is never my intention. 


Please HALP, I am so hungry and sad! Is there anything that actually tastes like food that isn’t solid food??

EDIT: for today it can only be COLD fluid-y foods (I can’t chew AT ALL)

I believe I can start on hot foods tomorrow or the day after (because hot food may cause bleeding in my mouth)

For cold food I have… smoothies, yogurt…


When I feel in this much physical pain and this sick

I get extremely depressed and paranoid, thinking I might accidentally overdose on my medicine or my fever will get too high without me noticing.

This probably sounds so over-dramatic, but it’s always been like this.

When I was seven years old, I had a high fever and started bawling in bed thinking that I was going to die. 

I have a temperature, my tears are hot, and the pain is so overwhelming.


I cleaned up my song “On My Way”

I’d really appreciate it if you gave it a listen and told me what you think! :)

http://annieelainey.tumblr.com/post/21246434806/on-my-way-by-annie-segarra-updated-4-16-12-when


Tonight we are going out for Sam and Eddie’s birthdays. Apparently they have some expensive dinner planned… don’t ask, because, hands up, I have absolutely no idea. They just told me to get dressed nice (in heels, send HALP) and be ready by 6. 

It shall be a wonderfully socially awkward evening :)